Currently Listening Carried Me: The Worship Project By Jeremy Camp Beautiful One see related

I'm discovering how to find fulfillment in Christ. It's a hard task let me tell ya. It's probably my biggest downfall.. in fact, I know it is. It's so hard for me to find complete satisfaction in Christ ALONE. I always seem to try and fill my life with other meaningless GARBAGE that doesn't ever really do the trick. I've been doing my devotions on a daily basis now for the first time in a long time.. I've struggled with doing them consistently for a while, but now I have accountability and I am SO incredibly thankful! I am LOVING being in the word! I'm realizing just how much I NEED it! Especially right now, as I'm wrestling thru some stuff, it is CRUCIAL.. probably more necessary than I even know. Prayer also goes hand in hand!!!

Man It'd take forever to catch up on life.. in a nutshell ~ I still Hate Drama! Hehe, BUT I'm having SO MUCH FUN!!!
That's all for now!!

*hugs&luvs*

Senior trip was AMAZING!!! Couldnt have asked for a better time..
But, why is it that i dont feel happy? I just had the most incredible week
and i'm sad now?? I mean, i just can't believe it's really OVER...  

here it is,

I am afraid of the future...

wait, no...

I'm terrified.

Jer. 29:11
-pray-

Jen Marvin.. you need to get a xanga women! So you can post comments on mine!!! hehe, I know you are reading this!!! I can see you!!! haha, just kidding..

Ok people this is what i have been thinking about.. like, WHAT the freak is the "compatibility formula"????? Not only in relationships but in friendships in general.. what makes us be friends with the people we are friends with? I am friends with people who are COMPLETELY different than me and with people who are JUST like me.. people who are introverts and extroverts, active and passive, up front personalities and behind-the-scenes personalities, leaders and followers, outgoing and mello.. etc etc..... i guess i'm just trying to piece this together because i dont know what kind of guy i would best fit with. I see him as outgoing but not annoying, funny but not the "class clown", smart but humble about it, a leader, brave, spontaneous but not in a stupid/regretful way, confident but not cocky, caring/thoughtful, a people person, passionate/dedicated, goal-oriented, charming, suave, decisive, willing to try new things, goofy, opinionated but not judgemental, completely logical... a guy who can make me MELT!!!

yeah, good luck finding a guy like that!!! I know i know.. it isnt up to me!! God will pick a good one, i know he will.. my other half, the one who completes me, my only one, my best fit... (sigh) one day.. some day.. WHAT DAY?!!

I doubt anyone really read all that.. if you DID read it drop me one.. K?!  ;)

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Currently Listening Clean By Shane & Shane YEARN see related

What.. no lovin for stephanie i see.. a grand total of 4 measly comments. I know i've  neglected xanga a bit, but don't let xanga neglect you!!! yeah, think about it.. lol

      Ok, i guess here's a nut shell.. Lately i've been lovin life. I've been havin so much fun with friends that it makes me sad that i will have to leave them in a few months.. But I've been searching.. I have these moments of emptiness that i'm sure we've all felt at one time or another.. Don't get me wrong i realize how incredibly blessed i truely am. My parents make SO MANY sacrifices for me.. I feel bad that they do so much for me and i don't do near as much for them in return. I absolutely HATE asking them for money and I feel like i've been doing it so much lately.. 10 bucks here, 20 bucks there, butt-loads of money for senior trip, a concert, BNYC, clothes, semi-formal for senior trip and this and that and the other thing.. I feel guilty. I feel selfish. I don't pay for gas or insurance or food or anything.. I am so lucky. I don't deserve it. AT ALL.. 
      I have the bestest friends in the world. All of my friends add something different to my life. Humor, sincerity, hugs, craziness, rebelion, growth, character, spontaneity, confusion, frustration, refreshment, confidence, challenges.. no one friend possess all them but without each of those additions to my life i wouldn't be who i am. That means that i wouldnt be who i am without each of you! The one characteristic i could do without in my life is DRAMA!!! haha, couldnt we all?! My friends (you guys) mean so much.. SO MUCH

there ya go.. hope that was comment worthy?!!

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March 4-11:Cancun!!!
March 15-19:Senior Trip!!!
March 23-25:Choir Tour!!!
April 3-7:Spring Break!!!
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oh my gosh!! do you guys have any idea how indredibly pumped i am?! i'm pretty much not going to be home all of march.. i love taking trips and i love bonding with friends!! ah!!  i'm gonna be making tons of memories and doing really stupid crazy random things.. yes! i love it!! it's almost here i'm sooo pumped!!

senior year kix bootie babie!!!